"I Love You" (Journal Entry 05-31-11)

Writer's Note:

I sat down yesterday and began to write a journal entry that quickly morphed into a short love story of sorts... I wasn't really sure what would come of it or how it would turn out, but after the just the first attempt, I knew God had given me something special. After re-working and re-writing it 4 more times, I came up with what you see written below. At first i thought it was too personal, too raw to share, but if anything, the one thing that people always seem to appreciate about my writing is the brutal honesty and transparency. Well, this is just that: brutally honest and transparent. So I decided to share it. I hope that maybe in someway, somehow, God uses it to touch you and speak you you about his endless, relentless, limitless, all-consuming love.

- Angie. <3

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"I love you". It was the first thing you said to me when you found me, lying on the ground in my own blood, crying and lost. You came to me and spoke tenderly to me the words of you love for me: "I love you". I felt undeserving of this, so i ran away, to the depths and darkness of my soul, but you followed me there. You saw me in my sin and said to me: "I love you". I became ashamed of my sin and tried to hid my face from you, but you found me and fulled my close to you, turned my face up towards yours and wiped the tears away, speaking softly your words of delight over me: "I love you" I was kicking and screaming, spitting you your face, yet the only thing you said to me was: "I love you". I rejected you, told you "no", but you still stayed with me. I've been unfaithful, looking for love in all the wrong places, when all I really wanted was you. But you knew that and came to take me home, to take me back from the other lovers I had chased. You poured ointment over my wounds and placed you hands over my scars, healing them. You loved me when I was unlovable, held me when I was untouchable. You cared about my heart even after I had thrown it away. You never left my side. Jesus, I could never repay you, but I have to tell you this one thing... I love you.